Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Fourty Eighth Post
It's hard to read between the lines. We often get consumed by what is given to us and what is already there. Stopping and analyzing the bigger picture is not second nature. So many judgments and assumptions are drawn, without even knowing all the facts. Stop think and analyze, yup that's my motto!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Fourty Seventh Post
People can be so hard to read. You can never really tell what is going through anyone's mind anymore. People send you mix signals, mess with your heart , your mind. It's ridiculous. One day someone will give you the biggest smile and the next they will stare you down like you shot their dog.
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“The more one analyses people, the more all reasons for analysis disappear. Sooner or later one comes to that dreadful universal thing called human nature.”- Oscar Wilde
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“The more one analyses people, the more all reasons for analysis disappear. Sooner or later one comes to that dreadful universal thing called human nature.”- Oscar Wilde
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Fourty Sixth post
Tonight I am going to pray, a prayer to our Father.
I will pray for strength, knowledge ,& courage.
All my worries will be cast away& all anxieties
blocked out because in God I will entrust.
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Here's to a prelude of a long, exciting journey ahead.
"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living."
- Sandra Bullock
I will pray for strength, knowledge ,& courage.
All my worries will be cast away& all anxieties
blocked out because in God I will entrust.
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Here's to a prelude of a long, exciting journey ahead.
"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living."
- Sandra Bullock
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Fourty Fifth post.
It's amazing how you can meet someone who can change your perspective on so many things. Someone who can get at your level and help you understand why things happen the way they do.
Everyone has their morals and their beliefs. & When you meet someone who has utterly almost the opposite lifestyle of you and still manages to believe in the same things you do, you can only smile.
Today I realized that no matter where you come from or where you live, everyone is and should be capable of distinguishing between what is right and what is wrong. There are no excuses for not knowing better. As you get older, you become wiser. That wisdom is suppose to guide and help you progress. Individually you are needed to push yourself to be able to understand the principles of life. Sometimes you act pass your limitations and you stumble, but that does not mean you stay down. You get right back up and continue facing your battles with a more insightful approach. On the contrary, let's say for some unfortunate reason one is simply unfamiliar to knowing the rights and the wrongs. That person must work all the more harder to be at the level of comprehension he or she should be. And that's just the way life works.
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knowledge is power, you can't aruge with that.
Everyone has their morals and their beliefs. & When you meet someone who has utterly almost the opposite lifestyle of you and still manages to believe in the same things you do, you can only smile.
Today I realized that no matter where you come from or where you live, everyone is and should be capable of distinguishing between what is right and what is wrong. There are no excuses for not knowing better. As you get older, you become wiser. That wisdom is suppose to guide and help you progress. Individually you are needed to push yourself to be able to understand the principles of life. Sometimes you act pass your limitations and you stumble, but that does not mean you stay down. You get right back up and continue facing your battles with a more insightful approach. On the contrary, let's say for some unfortunate reason one is simply unfamiliar to knowing the rights and the wrongs. That person must work all the more harder to be at the level of comprehension he or she should be. And that's just the way life works.
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knowledge is power, you can't aruge with that.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Fourty Fourth Post
"Our Star"
[It is 11:00 pm. Noah and Allie are on the phone]
Noah: I really miss you..
Allie: I miss you too. (sighs) I don't think I can do this anymore.
Noah: Please don't say that, Please.
(Both are silent for a few seconds)
Allie: (Goes to her window, opens it, and looks up) Look at the stars. Can you count the number of stars in the sky?
Noah: No, there's too many.
Allie: Exactly. It's impossible to count them all. The number of stars in the sky has to be around the same number of miles that lie between us.
(Noah has a flashback)
[It is 9:00 p.m. In the middle of a soccer field, Noah and Allie are both lying on the grass gazing up at the sky. They lay opposite, with their heads adjacent to each other.]
Allie: I really love the stars you know. The sky would just be a black dull screen without them.
Noah: Yeah i know. You always tell me. They are so bright, especially tonight.
Allie: (giggles) Hehe, I guess someone told them what today is.
Noah: (laughs) Maybe. They never stop shining, kind of like you. (smiles and turns his head toward Allie) You always brighten up my days.
Allie: (hits Noah's stomach) You're so corny..
Noah: (chuckles and looks up once more)( He points his pointer finger towards the sky) Can you see that one star, right there?.. The one shining the brightest.
Allie: Yeah i can! Wow, it's really preety.
Noah: That's going to be our star okay?
Allie: (reaches for Noah's Hand and slides her fingers through his)(She clutches his hand and kisses it)(She looks toward Noah) Okay if you want it to be our star. It's our star.
Noah: Don't forget. Okay? Promise?
Allie: Of course I wont forget and yes, I promise. (Rolls over and puts her head directly over Noah's, as he is still lying down) (She kisses Noah on the lips) I love you so much. I'll never forget this moment. (She kisses him once more on the lips) Happy Anniversary.
Noah: (Gently brings Allie's head closer to his and kisses her forehead) Happy Anniversary baby.
(Noah regains conscious)
Allie: Are you still there?
Noah: Yeah, I'm sorry. I was just thinking. I really don't want to give up on us. I don't want to lose you.
Allie: (begins to tear) I love you and never stopped loving you. But, we have to face facts..These past months have been hard on both of us. You're always busy now. You're either at school or staying up late doing reports for your professors or at your job or, or with your friends.. Same goes for me. And this time difference just makes it all the more harder for us to talk. College is important for the both of us. I am not asking you to give up anything for me. That would be unfair. I'm hurting Noah.. and whether you admit or not you're hurting too.
Noah: (rubs his face) (takes a deep breath) Yeah Allie. Okay, I'm hurting too. It hurts not being able to see you. I can't deny that. I was just trying to be strong, for us. And i know it's been hard. Trust me I know. But, it's all just temporary... The semester is going to end soon and I'll be able to fly down there when it does. You just need to wait and be patient. We will be together again in no time, I promise.
Allie: Noah, how can you promise that? What if something comes up? What if you don't have enough money to buy a plane ticket? You're working two jobs already. You promised me the day at the airport before flying off to college that things will be okay. I held you to that promise, and look what's happening now.
(Noah, unable to find the words to say back to Allie)(He goes back to his window)(He sticks his head outside and examines the stars)(He remembers the day in the soccer field)
Noah: Allie, can you just look up at the stars for a sec? Do you see that bright star up there? The brightest one?
Allie: (sighs)Noah, This is not the time to be..
Noah: (cuts her off) Please just do it.
(Allie looks back up at the sky and recognizes the familiar bright star)(She manages to form a smile amidst her tears)
Allie: I see it. I see our star.
Noah: Do you still remember the day I told you it was going to be "our star"?
Allie: (closes her eyes and remembers the moment they both were laying on the grass in the middle of the soccer field) How could I forget? It was the day of our 3rd year anniversary.
Noah: Do you know even know why I wanted to have one designated star just for us. One we can call "our star"?
Allie: No. The thought never came to my mind.
Noah: Well before I met you I could careless about the stars. I just thought they were cool and lit up the sky, you know. That's it. But meeting you gave me a different perspective on them. I came to think they symbolize hope. And as "corny" as that may sound or whatever you will call it, almost every night from the time you first told me you love stars I would look up at them and realize how happy they make me. On my worst days I look up and never doubt they won't fail to put a smile on my face. They actually helped through some rough times. And that's why I wanted me and you both to have our own star.
(Allie is speechless)
Noah : Babe, meeting you has had to be the best thing that happened in my life. In so many ways, I have changed because of you. You make me want to be a better person. Everything about you, even your flaws I love. We have been through so much together and I do not want to just let it all go to waste. If I were to list everything I love about you and explain how much you mean to me we would be up all night. So please babe, don't give up on us. I love you.
Allie: (In tears again) I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I was just so ready to just give up on what we have. I'm weak and this distance is the only thing stopping us from being completely happy together. At times it's just more than enough to handle. You are the most amazing person I have ever met and I can't stand not being able to see you. Everything you've just said made me again realize why I came to fall in love with you. If God could grant me one wish right now, I would without hesitating ask to have me put right in your arms and wish to never let go. All I want right now is to look into your light brown eyes, kiss you, and fall asleep next to your warm chest.
(Allie catches her breath)
After we get off the phone I am going to look at our star and wish upon it to give me strength to wait for you. To give me hope that we will be together soon. I know it's not going to be easy, but I will work and fight like hell if it means being with you again.
(Noah smiles and is relieved)
Noah: Thank you babe. Thank you for not losing hope in us.
Allie: No, Thank you babe. I love you... more than anyone ever will.
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written by: Yours Truly.
[It is 11:00 pm. Noah and Allie are on the phone]
Noah: I really miss you..
Allie: I miss you too. (sighs) I don't think I can do this anymore.
Noah: Please don't say that, Please.
(Both are silent for a few seconds)
Allie: (Goes to her window, opens it, and looks up) Look at the stars. Can you count the number of stars in the sky?
Noah: No, there's too many.
Allie: Exactly. It's impossible to count them all. The number of stars in the sky has to be around the same number of miles that lie between us.
(Noah has a flashback)
[It is 9:00 p.m. In the middle of a soccer field, Noah and Allie are both lying on the grass gazing up at the sky. They lay opposite, with their heads adjacent to each other.]
Allie: I really love the stars you know. The sky would just be a black dull screen without them.
Noah: Yeah i know. You always tell me. They are so bright, especially tonight.
Allie: (giggles) Hehe, I guess someone told them what today is.
Noah: (laughs) Maybe. They never stop shining, kind of like you. (smiles and turns his head toward Allie) You always brighten up my days.
Allie: (hits Noah's stomach) You're so corny..
Noah: (chuckles and looks up once more)( He points his pointer finger towards the sky) Can you see that one star, right there?.. The one shining the brightest.
Allie: Yeah i can! Wow, it's really preety.
Noah: That's going to be our star okay?
Allie: (reaches for Noah's Hand and slides her fingers through his)(She clutches his hand and kisses it)(She looks toward Noah) Okay if you want it to be our star. It's our star.
Noah: Don't forget. Okay? Promise?
Allie: Of course I wont forget and yes, I promise. (Rolls over and puts her head directly over Noah's, as he is still lying down) (She kisses Noah on the lips) I love you so much. I'll never forget this moment. (She kisses him once more on the lips) Happy Anniversary.
Noah: (Gently brings Allie's head closer to his and kisses her forehead) Happy Anniversary baby.
(Noah regains conscious)
Allie: Are you still there?
Noah: Yeah, I'm sorry. I was just thinking. I really don't want to give up on us. I don't want to lose you.
Allie: (begins to tear) I love you and never stopped loving you. But, we have to face facts..These past months have been hard on both of us. You're always busy now. You're either at school or staying up late doing reports for your professors or at your job or, or with your friends.. Same goes for me. And this time difference just makes it all the more harder for us to talk. College is important for the both of us. I am not asking you to give up anything for me. That would be unfair. I'm hurting Noah.. and whether you admit or not you're hurting too.
Noah: (rubs his face) (takes a deep breath) Yeah Allie. Okay, I'm hurting too. It hurts not being able to see you. I can't deny that. I was just trying to be strong, for us. And i know it's been hard. Trust me I know. But, it's all just temporary... The semester is going to end soon and I'll be able to fly down there when it does. You just need to wait and be patient. We will be together again in no time, I promise.
Allie: Noah, how can you promise that? What if something comes up? What if you don't have enough money to buy a plane ticket? You're working two jobs already. You promised me the day at the airport before flying off to college that things will be okay. I held you to that promise, and look what's happening now.
(Noah, unable to find the words to say back to Allie)(He goes back to his window)(He sticks his head outside and examines the stars)(He remembers the day in the soccer field)
Noah: Allie, can you just look up at the stars for a sec? Do you see that bright star up there? The brightest one?
Allie: (sighs)Noah, This is not the time to be..
Noah: (cuts her off) Please just do it.
(Allie looks back up at the sky and recognizes the familiar bright star)(She manages to form a smile amidst her tears)
Allie: I see it. I see our star.
Noah: Do you still remember the day I told you it was going to be "our star"?
Allie: (closes her eyes and remembers the moment they both were laying on the grass in the middle of the soccer field) How could I forget? It was the day of our 3rd year anniversary.
Noah: Do you know even know why I wanted to have one designated star just for us. One we can call "our star"?
Allie: No. The thought never came to my mind.
Noah: Well before I met you I could careless about the stars. I just thought they were cool and lit up the sky, you know. That's it. But meeting you gave me a different perspective on them. I came to think they symbolize hope. And as "corny" as that may sound or whatever you will call it, almost every night from the time you first told me you love stars I would look up at them and realize how happy they make me. On my worst days I look up and never doubt they won't fail to put a smile on my face. They actually helped through some rough times. And that's why I wanted me and you both to have our own star.
(Allie is speechless)
Noah : Babe, meeting you has had to be the best thing that happened in my life. In so many ways, I have changed because of you. You make me want to be a better person. Everything about you, even your flaws I love. We have been through so much together and I do not want to just let it all go to waste. If I were to list everything I love about you and explain how much you mean to me we would be up all night. So please babe, don't give up on us. I love you.
Allie: (In tears again) I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I was just so ready to just give up on what we have. I'm weak and this distance is the only thing stopping us from being completely happy together. At times it's just more than enough to handle. You are the most amazing person I have ever met and I can't stand not being able to see you. Everything you've just said made me again realize why I came to fall in love with you. If God could grant me one wish right now, I would without hesitating ask to have me put right in your arms and wish to never let go. All I want right now is to look into your light brown eyes, kiss you, and fall asleep next to your warm chest.
(Allie catches her breath)
After we get off the phone I am going to look at our star and wish upon it to give me strength to wait for you. To give me hope that we will be together soon. I know it's not going to be easy, but I will work and fight like hell if it means being with you again.
(Noah smiles and is relieved)
Noah: Thank you babe. Thank you for not losing hope in us.
Allie: No, Thank you babe. I love you... more than anyone ever will.
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written by: Yours Truly.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Fourty Third post.
I know what it feels like to feel like lonely, friendless, and left out. I remember thinking to myself wow, I am pathetic & more than anything i pitied myself. I recall people just staring at me. For once I just wanted to be like, "Hey, are you even gonna say hi?! or at least introduce yourself".. I hated feeling that way.. and Now I see someone else in my position. I know what i should have done, and I didn't do it. I had sympathy for her, but I just couldn't do it.
I don't think I am ready for the responsiblity bestowed upon me.. Lately, I feel like every time I am being tested I screw up. But I wouldn't be appointed this office for no reason.. It's imperative, I need to break through my shell and progress. I can't keep making excuses, and using the term "but" all the time. Deep down I am scared. I am about to take an oath and I promised in my statement to try my best. Right now I need to live up to what I stated and have COURAGE. It all comes back to that. I have to stop worrying about other people may think and start being comfortable with who I am and what I do.
I don't think I am ready for the responsiblity bestowed upon me.. Lately, I feel like every time I am being tested I screw up. But I wouldn't be appointed this office for no reason.. It's imperative, I need to break through my shell and progress. I can't keep making excuses, and using the term "but" all the time. Deep down I am scared. I am about to take an oath and I promised in my statement to try my best. Right now I need to live up to what I stated and have COURAGE. It all comes back to that. I have to stop worrying about other people may think and start being comfortable with who I am and what I do.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Fourty Second post
I sit alone, desolate from the young lovers around me. Secluded, I chose not to be. Yet I am being set apart. I miss having that someone, who at the end of the day is the one person I am smiling for. That one person who will compliment me on my worst days because he adores to see me happy. I miss having that one person who will look at me and not only appreciate my looks, but my personality because that's what he came to like me for. I want to be able to sleep and dream amorous dreams of him and I. So, the next day I can tell him all about it and hear his giggle that have always made me weak in the kness. I want to feel desired and be crazy about a guy who in return is crazy about me. I long to feel a sense of companionship again..
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