through experience.

moving really opened up my eyes to things i shouldve realized a long time ago. honestly, i took a lot of things for granted before and thats a mistake i hope to not repeat. i felt like my friends would always be there but now they arent, and i have to try even harder to keep them in my life. i used to complain about the littlest things when really i had it all.. never could i say i was fully content because i would just be lieing to myself. that incomplete feeling was simply unavoidable and there was always just something missing, but really everything i needed was already there. 

i was just to naive to understand all i needed was right in front of me..

i always seemed to doubt myself. i lacked the sel-confidence i needed. i was always comparing myself to others making me feel like i was never good enough. i should have appreciated myself more...

maybe its true how they say "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON," ... maybe god wanted this for me to show how important the things i had were all along. he wanted to show me what is really important in my life and how i should cherish them as long as i can. and now i feel like a stronger person and because of all the struggles i went through to make it to this point i am much more confident person than i was before. i keep having to face various challenges that help me figure who i am and what i am capable of. clearly i can tell now who my true friends are.. the ones that wont let "distance" end a friendship. my relationship with my family is closer than it has ever been .. i am looking at life through a different lens now. not necessarily a better one.. just a different one.

it is really true how they say... "don't take things for granted because the may not be there the next day."  keep the important ones close to your heart..