helpless.

i cant seem to think right. and im ready to just give up. i told myself i wouldnt cry . that i will fight off the tears and just ignore this feeling of sadness, cause it wont get me anywhere. it wont do any good. but right now i am ready to breakdown. i am not asking for sympathy and i am not asking for attention. I just feel so HELPLESS& this time i dont think anybody will understand. 

i am looking at this road straight ahead. its the road that everybody is taking. Its the road i want to take. but this strong gust of wind keeps pushing me back. It will stop blowing for awhile. then starts blowing again, pushing me back further and further.  it pushed me back to the begining of the road and forces me to take the other road right next to it. the road i dont want to take, the road nobody around me wants to go to.