hoping.

i am hoping that in a few months, maybe even the next, that things will be much simpler. i hope that this puzzle i call my life, will fall into place. i pretty sure that not everything will make sense, but all i hope is that i will find myself along the way. by then i hope to know, which direction i am going. By then i am sure that the true colors of my friends will show. it will be clear to me who really cares and who is going to be there for me even if i am not physically here anymore. I just HOPE that this combustion of mixed feelings will go away, and things will finally be clear to me.