that reoccuring scared feeling

"I'm so scared of everything. I'm scared of how things will turn out when I'm gone. We may say our friendship will last forever. And I do believe our friendship is strong and will never fail because neither one of us will allow it to, but we have no control over the distance that stands between us. It scares me knowing that you are going to be laughing and smiling with someone else other than me. And what scares me the most is that someone is going to take my space as your best friend. I can't bare the thought that when I'm sad and crying, someone else is going to be here wiping my tears from my face. I know a time is going to come soon when we have to part, but I ask myself why can't it be later and not now. Our lives are going to change once we part, and I fear that so much."